| My name is Catherine Firestone.
I was born in 1935 in India in the foothills of the Himalayas on the east
end of India, but we soon moved down to Calcutta.
Calcutta is very often looked on as a problem area of India because it
has more people living in less space, and so much poverty, but at the
same time, they are trying to come out of that and make something of themselves.
It is quite impressive.
My father was an Anglican minister in the Church and he was in charge
of the cathedral in Calcutta. At that time, India was under the British
rule -- what was known as the Raj -- so they needed people in the church
to minister to the local population, but also of course to the British
that were living in India.
It has changed quite a bit. I went back for the first time two years
ago. I hadn't been back since I left in 1945. What had happened in the
meantime was the partitioning of India, so all the Europeans left and
the Indians took over self-rule. Then followed quickly the partition of
the Hindus and the Muslims, which was a horrendous moment in Indian history.
The bloodshed was gruesome.
What happened in Calcutta was that in a matter of about two months, close
to three million people moved into the city. They were already overpopulated.
They came in from the countryside and from other cities around India where
they were living with people who were Muslims, and they moved back to
Calcutta because that was Hindu.
Yes, Gandhi was the buzz of the town during this period. My father met
him. My father had quite a lot to do with the viceroy in Calcutta, so
he went to a meeting at which Gandhi was present. Other than the war,
the partition business and self-rule were the big topics in India. I think
it was quite evident that Gandhi was a man of absolutely extraordinary
power and conviction. No doubt about that.
So what I saw when I went back to India two years ago was that there
were layers upon layers of people living in the street. The houses that
had been owned and built by the Brits used to be nice Victorian villas
with gardens around them, and there was always a gate man with a turban,
very elegant. His only job was to sit at the gate and let people in or
not let people in, and this for a single dwelling, not like a gate man
here for a hundred houses in a gated community. But every one needed jobs,
so you could get a man to sit at your gate for a very small amount of
money. All the English people had several servants looking after them,
bearers and cooks and helpers for the children.
What happened when the three million people moved into Calcutta, was
the Brits were gone, and there were these houses, and they became filled
up with people. Then the gardens became filled up with people building
little shacks out of canvas and tin and cardboard boxes. The bigger shacks
would be built in the back, and others right down to the pavement, to
the sidewalks, to the actual road, until you've got people living and
sleeping in the street, some with nothing more than a piece of material
which they put over themselves at night, maybe they're lying on a newspaper
or something. It's incredibly hand-to-mouth living in that area.
Of course it looks very, very dirty, but I have to say the Indians are
very clean people and every day they go either to a public spigot and
they will wash their feet, wash their hands, a wash while they're still
wearing their clothes, because obviously they don't strip in the middle
of the street. Or they'll go down to the Ganges, the holy river of the
Hindus. It is the filthiest, most garbage-strewn body of water you could
ever hope to see. There are carcasses of animals, and further up river,
not in Calcutta itself - you'll find dead bodies because people get thrown
in after they die. This is considered a good thing, because this is the
mother Ganges; it's very holy, and as long as you get into the Ganges
when you die, you will be absorbed into the great hereafter.
So they will go to the Ganges in the morning, say their prayers, they'll
wash in this filthy water, they'll clean their teeth in this filthy water,
and they will come out of this water - we've watched them - looking and
feeling like Venus coming out of the waves. Clean and fresh and sparkling
as though they had been in a really clean bath! Somehow they must have
all the antibodies that fight the germs that must be rampant in those
waters. They don't seem to get particularly sick. Some are very thin.
You don't find many fat people there, a few who tend to ride in the rickshaws
and have other people do things for them, but the majority of the population
is quite trim from hard work.
Yes, I've seen the Taj Mahal. It is magical, absolutely magical. It's
built of translucent marble, quite crystalline on the outside. Because
of that, as the moon goes down, when you go to it early in the morning,
it just seems to float -- it seems as though it isn't even touching the
ground. It's gorgeous! It was built in the 17th century by Emperor Shah
Jahan as a mausoleum for his wife Mumtaz Mahal, whom he absolutely adored.
She died in childbirth, and he was totally distraught. Eventually, as
I understand it, he built a palace for himself across the river and locked
himself in so he could see it for the rest of his days.
I have three sisters and a brother. Three comprised the first half of
the half dozen, then there was a gap of seven years, along came two more,
and then we adopted another. So my older sister, then myself, then my
brother, we all had the India experience. We were children in India, caught
out there by the Second World War. Usually, when the children were old
enough to go to school, they'd be shipped back to England, but in our
case we couldn't, because the war was all around. But in fact it was very
exciting because during the war we were in Calcutta and Calcutta became
a big staging post for the Allied troops. There were two enormous encampments
filled with jeeps and gun carriages and I don't know what all the stuff
was, but it was quite exciting.
We left India in 1945, at the very end of the Second World War, and we
went by ship, of course. We traveled for six weeks in a freighter boat
that was carrying cargo -- peanuts and jute! The ship was owned by the
Scottish fleet, but it was called The Chinese Prince, and we had all Chinese
sailors on board. There were forty-eight passengers on a ship with twelve
cabins built for first class businessmen going out from England to India.
They made all these little cabins into foursomes, so my mother, my brother,
my sister and I each had a bunk, and our baby sister was in a basket,
and we lived in that little space. The boat had no amenities for passengers,
no decks. We would go sit on top of the hatches under which were stored
all the peanuts and stuff. There were submarines and German u-boats still
cruising around. We had to go in blackout and have our life jackets with
us at all times. My mother was told she better sleep in hers, because
she wouldn't have time to put it on and get hold of the baby if there
was an alarm. And sometimes the ship would send out deck charges, underwater
bombs. It was an exciting journey.
So we went back in 1945 to England to find an England that was quite
tired. It had had war since 1939 - heavy bombing, very short rations for
everybody, but still, for us it was exciting to be back to what we had
always called home, though India was all we had ever known.
I wasn't quite ten, and I went to a regular school, but that school is
where I met the dancing teacher who encouraged me and eventually led me
to an audition at the Royal Ballet School. I went for the audition when
I was twelve, but my father said, "No. You go back to school. Finish
your education." He insisted I get my high school graduation. At
that time, you could do it whenever you could do it. You didn't have to
wait for an age point. So I was fourteen and a half when I graduated from
high school, and then went on to the ballet school when I was not quite
fifteen.
What did it feel like to perform? Oh, it was very good. Very exciting.
And the Royal Ballet was truly marvelous. It had become an institution.
After the war, people flocked to the ballet because it was something beautiful,
something with color, music and movement. Throughout the war, there were
theater performances of different kinds but people attended with a great
sense of stress. You never knew when the theater was going to be bombed
or whatever. So finally when that was all over it was very exciting, and
from the end of the war up until I got there, the company was gathering
strength and becoming better and better.
Was I nervous ever? Oh, yes. Butterflies! Immense butterflies! However,
it's quite a funny story, because the first time I was on the stage, we
were extras for the opera, the famous grand opera at the Royal Opera House.
(Extras, for those of you who don't know, are people who don't really
do anything except they're there.) Then the very first time I actually
went on was as a page in an opera. It was my first year in the Royal Ballet
School. I'd come up from the country and I didn't know anything, but we
were chosen to be pages. We had to hold a candle, and that was easy, and
we had to walk, that was easy, everything was easy, right up until I had
to put the prescribed wig on my head. It was a pageboy type wig, of course.
At that time, however, I had two very lustrous, thick pigtails, and all
the hair that went with them. I could not get it all piled under this
wig!
It was the dress rehearsal. We hadn't seen these wigs before, but we
had to put on what they gave us. Well, I couldn't. In the end, I had my
own hair showing about this much in the front, and I had pieces of my
hair coming out in the back. I was so mortified. So embarrassed. The performance
was going to be the following week. I had a weekend in between. I rushed
down to my home in the country and I said, "I'm going to get my hair
cut off." Early that Saturday morning, I was in the barbershop. All
my hair right up to here, chopped off. So I could get my wig on.
The first thing I did for the ballet was also quite funny. I saw my name
on the notice board and it was for The Sleeping Beauty. I rushed to the
telephone to tell my parents that I was going to be on in the ballet at
Covent Garden. My mother said, "Wonderful. What is it you're going
to be?" "I'm going to be a rat," I replied. That fell rather
flat. But it was quite exciting because we had to pull along the wicked
fairy's coach.
From there on we did other things and got more used to it, but always
the butterflies, always nervous.
Did I ever perform for the Queen? Indeed. Several times. The heads of
state from different countries would come and the Queen would put on a
big gala, and we'd dance. We had a performance on the night that the Queen
was crowned, a coronation piece for her, so that was quite exciting.
And of course there were the two American tours that were very exciting.
I went to America and performed at the Metropolitan Opera House in New
York. Also, we were doing a television performance of a short ballet,
and after that, we came onto the Ed Sullivan Show! We just lined up and
he interviewed the ballerina that was with us. We also did a full-length
ballet on television for CBS. We did Cinderella. That was fun.
We toured. On one tour, the second one, we toured for four months and
went to forty-eight cities throughout the United States. We'd go for two
nights and move on. I would escape whenever I had time. I always loved
to see the art galleries. I'd go bustling off to whatever the art gallery
of the city was. And sometimes as a group we'd go off and take a side
tour if we had a day off.
One thing I absolutely refused to do, I thought, was marry an American.
And where do you suppose I met Brooks, my American husband? At the stage
door of the Metropolitan Opera House in New York City. He was with two
friends and they wanted to meet some dancers, and there we were. It was
a little confusing. On the one hand, I somehow knew on sight that he would
be the man I would marry. But I was not interested in being married at
that point. I had a career, so I brushed him off. He also seemed to have
that idea. I came back to America two years later on another tour, and
there he was again. And so it worked out.
Sometimes there were tours in America where you'd have Saturday performances
and Sunday performances, and you'd have a matinee on each day, so you'd
have four performances, and they were all Swan Lake in some places, so
you'd have two acts of being a swan in each show, because the second act
was swans and the fourth act was swans. So by the time you came around
to your eighth act of being a swan on Sunday evening, you'd had enough.
But it was fun.
One's feet do hurt. There's no getting around that. Do you know about
that? Are you a dancer too? Well, let me share my misery with you. My
major problem used to be strains and sprains. I have very loose joints
so I could very quickly sprain or strain if I didn't go up on my foot
in the right direction exactly. I could pull it and strain it. I didn't
break things. My toes are actually not too bad. They seemed to work out
okay; they got hardened. But my ankles are what would give me trouble.
It's a very unnatural situation to be in.
And there were some funny times. One time I was getting ready down in
the dressing room. The ballet on stage was all about white sylph-y creatures
with very white faces and white dresses all dancing around in the moonlight.
I used to do a solo in that, but I would share it, so one night I would
do it and another night somebody else would. On this particular night,
I wasn't doing my solo. I was down in the dressing room getting ready
for a Spanish ballet, so I was putting on my wet brown, very tan. And
the music starts out and all of a sudden a voice comes over the loud speaker:
"We are one sylph short. We need a sylph. Send up a sylph."
And I'm the only one in the dressing room who knows this ballet.
Two friends rushed at me, started taking off the brown, patting on the
white powder, and fixing my hair. I got my tights and shoes and dress
on, and onto the stage I went. However, the face was still a little ruddy
to be a pure sylph. The others on the stage had no idea that somebody
was missing, at least most of them didn't. I appear on the stage. Nobody
has told me, and nobody seems to know who I am replacing, so I don't know
where in the stage groupings I'm supposed to be. I have to figure it out.
So I'm floating around and I find someone and I kind of go up to her as
though I'm going to go into the pose, and she looks at me in horror. "Not
here!" Nobody wanted me. So funny!
Various things happen like that. I was there when Margot Fonteyn fell
flat on her butt. That was a big gasp. She said a couple of words that
she probably didn't want reported.
We had to practice every day. Except Sundays, or if we were dancing on
Sundays, we'd have a different day off. Every day we would have a class
for an hour and a half in the morning and follow that up with either a
rehearsal or we'd work on a piece, or whatever. If we were dancing at
night, we'd rehears and practice probably from about nine o'clock to about
two, and then we'd have a break, go to the theater, do another warm-up
before the show. If we didn't have a show, we'd work all day.
We were like a family, no question. And it was a very different experience
from what you sometimes hear in other companies because there was no jealousy,
no back biting, no people trying to stab each other. It was very cooperative
and supportive.
The friendships continue. I am about to go and stay with my best friend
with whom I shared hotel rooms and everything. She has a house in Antigua
in the British West Indies. She lives in London and she's a very celebrated
person now. Lady Anya Sainsbury.
And I've kept in touch with several others. Tomorrow I'm going to go
see a man who is also very celebrated and was a dancer with me. He lives
in America now, down in Agora; he is having a celebration and a ballet
studio is being dedicated to him. His name is Stanley Holden.
All that was great fun and very different from where we have ended up
now. I was living in London, I met this American man, got married in England,
came to live in America.
Once I stopped dancing and got married, my life changed in so many ways.
I did some directing of ballet, some teaching, but I was no longer performing.
I made that decision. It was a hard decision in a way, and yet in a way
I was quite clear about it in my own mind.
After we were married, we were transferred to Italy with the Firestone
Tire and Rubber Company. I adored Italy. Back when I was dancing, we had
gone on one tour where we danced at the Paris Opera House, the La Scala
in Milan, and the Rome Opera House. It was the most amazing experience.
That's when I fell in love with Italy. And now, we were able to live in
Rome. Then we were transferred from Italy to London, which wasn't too
shabby either. We were there for five years and during that time I did
quite a lot of fund-raising and things like that for the ballet.
Heroes? I looked up to and adored Margot Fonteyn because she was just
such a wonderful person.
Another person I admired was Kathleen Ferrier. You may not have heard
of her, but she was an opera singer who started as a telephone operator.
She was persuaded by someone in her office to go in for a competition.
She had this great contralto voice, a mid-range voice. Anyway, she ended
up being one of the foremost singers of her time, an absolutely incredible
voice. Then she got cancer. She was singing Orpheus at Covent Garden in
1953. Just beautiful! You could see her in the rehearsals, she would sort
of limp, but she would sing like an absolute angel. The very last performance
that she sang, we knew she was dying. You could tell. The whole audience
could tell. And she didn't quite finish the performance. But she was just
extraordinary woman. Such guts.
Right now? I might have to come back to that because my mind is focused
on the past.
And haven't even got to the wine era yet. It's been very fortunate. I
could never have dreamed that we would end up in the Santa Ynez Valley
with a winery. That's also fascinating because we were in London, and
my husband was working for the Firestone Tire and Rubber Company and he
realized it wasn't right for him. He's a person of too many of his own
ideas. He gets very enthusiastic and excited about things, and he sees
down the road - he's a person of vision. And they didn't want that in
the tire and rubber company, so he was always up against a brick wall
with them. He gave them all kinds of ideas that they turned down only
to find that those were what they actually should have done. He decided
to do something on his own and came over to America again, obviously to
California since that was home, and started looking around. His father
had bought land here in Santa Ynez, and grapes were the big thing at that
particular moment in 1972. So his father had decided he would like to
plant grapes, and Brooks said "I think you'd be better off making
wine, and not just growing grapes." And so we built the first winery
in this valley. People at that time thought we were absolutely barking
mad!
I'm now on the Board of Directors of an organization called Direct Relief.
It's a fabulous organization. We collect medical supplies either from
drug companies or hospitals that are upgrading -- things like wheelchairs,
dental chairs, beds, all the kinds of things that have to do with medical
needs. And we receive a lot of medicines from pharmaceutical companies.
We package it all, have it ready, and if there's an earthquake somewhere,
like in Mexico yesterday - they tell us precisely what they need. For
example, during the big earthquake in India a couple of years ago, they
wanted painkillers so people who were pinned under great concrete blocks
could last until someone could lift these concrete blocks off them. We
send supplies to clinics around the world, to keep them working. There
are native doctors who go get their training in Europe and go back to
practice and help people, but there's no money for medical supplies. So
we give them the means to practice in their own country.
I love this work because it's so immediate. You see boxes of supplies
all ready to go with names on them like Rwanda. Our overhead is less than
2% of what we collect, so 98cents of every dollar goes directly to the
people. When I went to India, we went to a clinic, and you could see what
we've been doing. We have a contact so the stuff we send doesn't get scooped
up for the black market. It's a great organization.
My advice? Dream a lot. Know that nothing is impossible. There's an awful
lot of luck, but a lot of what happens is what you can envision. And I
think one of the things I would say is be adaptable. Stay flexible, and
be ready for what comes down the path. Don't be afraid of making changes
and changing direction. Look at it carefully, of course, but there are
so many different turnings in life, and I'm here to tell you that only
makes it more wonderful.

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